BHD

I'm having a major major major bad hair day.
It's funny how much confidence your hair gives you. Why is my confidence determined by dead pieces of hair hanging off my scalp. In my case it's hay....dead pieces of hay.
All I wanted was blonde hair. Instead, my whole head was bleached, then highlighted and then toned and man did my scalp burn! My hair was not blonde....it was bright florescent yellow. I'm big bird. So I'm mad. I'm trying to pinpoint this madness. What exactly am I mad at. I'm mad at the color, I'm mad at myself for not speaking up and denying the bleaching process. I thought only hockey players bleached their hair. I'm just mostly mad at the state of my straw strands and burning scalp. It's still burning. I'm surprised my hair didn't fall out. I contemplated pulling a Britney and shaving my head last night.
Thankfully, my hairdresser friend tried to fix it. She put some brown in it but that combined with the blonde isn't the prettiest thing you've ever seen but it sure takes away from the inital wow factor that it was. So I'm thankful in that regard. But she still needs to fix it and by fix it I mean dye it all back completely brown and let my straw heal. Is healing possible?
My hair better not fall out because my hair does bring me some insecurity. I have a receding hairline that only got worse with having kids, so I'll try anything to hide my left side of my forehead. My brother has the same issue and I remember my dad combed his hair very meticulously to hide his high forehead, tho he claimed his hair was cool and that was just the cool style. Yah right.
Wanna know what I think is funny about hairdressers? That if you stop going to your hairdresser for whatever reason (you don't trust her, you found someone better), it's always awkward when you encounter them anywhere else. It's like you broke up with them without an explanation. Why does it matter? My hairdresser friend said that it would be polite to call them and tell them you won't be coming anymore and just to makeup a reason if you don't want to hurt their feelings. It's so funny that going to the same hairdresser is treated like a relationship. I don't have time for that.